Budakumentary
thanks sian ying for the cd... thought it's just another normal acapella cd i have... but this one is different... interestingly remix popular songs and humour is much integrated... budak pantai is really
pantai (means clever)...
home again courtesy of my boss...
Oscar Nominees
Ha! last samurai has 4 nominations for the 76th academy awards. although it was not nominated for any main awards, but at least ken watanbe was nominated for the best actor in a supporting role.
Other important nominations:
ACTOR IN A LEADING ROLE
Johnny Depp - PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: THE CURSE OF THE BLACK PEARL
Ben Kingsley - HOUSE OF SAND AND FOG
Jude Law - COLD MOUNTAIN
Bill Murray - LOST IN TRANSLATION
Sean Penn - MYSTIC RIVER
ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE
Alec Baldwin - THE COOLER
Benicio Del Toro - 21 GRAMS
Djimon Hounsou - IN AMERICA
Tim Robbins - MYSTIC RIVER
Ken Watanabe - THE LAST SAMURAI
ACTRESS IN A LEADING ROLE
Keisha Castle-Hughes - WHALE RIDER
Diane Keaton - SOMETHING'S GOTTA GIVE
Samantha Morton - IN AMERICA
Charlize Theron - MONSTER
Naomi Watts - 21 GRAMS
ACTRESS IN A SUPPORTING ROLE
Shohreh Aghdashloo - HOUSE OF SAND AND FOG
Patricia Clarkson - PIECES OF APRIL
Marcia Gay Harden - MYSTIC RIVER
Holly Hunter - THIRTEEN
Renée Zellweger - COLD MOUNTAIN
BEST PICTURE
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
LOST IN TRANSLATION
MASTER AND COMMANDER: THE FAR SIDE OF THE WORLD
MYSTIC RIVER
SEABISCUIT
few disappointments: nicole kidman was not nominated for the best actress, his ex-hubby was also left out in the actor category.
newsflash: prices of eggs to be raised by 5 times in few days time. eat eggs now or don't eat at all.
everyone thinks that being attached to
A wing is the best thing that could happen. well, i don't deny that
A wing is quite comfortable, though there are still things to be done ( A wing is not about slacking, fyi), but somehow or rather, I felt more isolated. it's like everytime i go back to my previous department, i felt left out and everyone in the wings seems to be like why-is-he-here-slack-right-nothing-to-do. well i don't blame anyone, but the feeling of not-belonging-to-ssw anymore is not pleasant at all.
still feels dependance is quite a problem. it's not that i want to push everything away, but i am worried that after i ord or not available, dependancy will hinder the ability to make own decisions, and thus leads to more worries. i am trying to teach independance but it appears that i am pushing and ignoring.
*signz*
today is quite smooth.
hope tomorrow will be better.
Short blog
Sometimes, where you think everything is fine and you are feeling really ok, there are bound to be at least one thing that will dampen that feeling.
Trust me, this feeling isn't that good.
Nope no one has agitated me nor I am feeling really sad. Just something to ponder.
Ok, off to work.
Last Samurai
brilliant show. i would give a 8 to 9 out of a perfect ten. with mostly an asian cast, particularly japanese, this movie depicts the lives and spirit of samurai. i love the marvellously composed music, as it cresendos when the samurais went to war against their enemies, and decrescendo to almost silence during the rather intimate yet conservative scene of tom cruise and the female partner. as a music lover, i noticed much of the soundtrack of this movie. the distinct difference of japanese music and the western/classical music is that japanese are able to compse a very simple yet powerful melody, with an interesting countermelody with running string and winds accompanying the main theme. another interesting parts is the use of percussion. no use of loud cymbals nor drumsets but only the distinct sounds of a particular unique japanese percussion instrument which is soft yet piercing through the silence, adding the atmosephere of the movie scenes.
love the movie, might watch it again. the themes of relationship of father and son, of the sacrifice of a samurai, of a weak ruling of a young emperor, of love, of many which i am yet able to describe or identify are much illustrated in this movie.
enjoy it. must watch for most.
Almost the end of holidays
Darn! the feeling of unwillingness and a tinge of desperation is coming back. it must be the end of holidays and the thought of having to start work real soon gets it on the nerves. nevertheless, the last two days are really enjoyable. thanks to all my friends out there.
sat: it's eat, drink, gamble and the best of all, hongbaos at fei's house. love the company of jason, nick, lta ang, and long time no see, calvin and sae, and what a surprise terence is there too. after the gathering at fei's house, they had a plan to go to chinablack for cjc's bash. went along. but in the end, it's zouk instead due to the unbelievable crowd. nick and terence keep bumping into friends, where me meet only pathetically one. where did all me friendster friends gone to? ha! didn't really enjoy the music at zouk, and thus just drank with the 2 couples of yau and ester, and joyce and lewis. the crazy terence and nick did their stuff on the dance floor. felt ultra awkward. maybe i am not the cheongster to be. nick said it's the music.
sun: sumptious 8 course meal at jurong east with granduncle, grandaunts, grandma, uncle, parents and the only my-age-group-me. enjoy the meal though. then off to meet sy and the rest at seng kang. while waiting for sy to come, a familiar voice rang. it's lta ang. what a place to bump into him. sy says i must play my hey-i-am-popular-and-i-am-bumping-into-friends game here. all are present except ziyang. it's more card games and a bit of ktv at sy's house. then off to bugis to have yoshinoya where we discuss the 'ya' means house or hut in jap.
anyway, enjoyed the last few days.
tata.
GONG XI FA CAI
going around visiting made me realise one thing: not only that my paternal side is more generous with their hong bao, it is also that i didn't know what my cousins are doing. BUT NOW, i know. alvin is some computer programmer doing some
highly confidential stuff. haha! mag is with club 21 and going to italy today. jos is doing nursing and his brother is going to have his o's this year. (he is as tall if not taller than me). on my maternal side, everyone seemed to have drunk some potion that all of them became as tall if not taller than me. and i am one of the oldest of all. junyi has become a comd runner.
there are a lot of catching up to do.
anyway, seemed to have put on quite a lot of weight with all the goodies.
arggg...
anyway, have had a wonder cny...
The Night of steamboat, beer and MADNESS...
i swear i have never drunk so much in my life before, although it's not that much as compared to my dear feng who vomitted and left the mess for the rest to clean up. luckily, he didn't vomit in our bunk, or at least i didn't wake up in the morning finding myself covered with vomit.
i was sober, though all drunkards say they are so. but i really was sober. i drank only slightly more than a can of beer, some vodka ribena and bailey's. but that's enough to make a spot in jeremy's book of records. suprisingly, my face wasn't red after drinking. you must look at ewen's. he merely drank a can, and his face was as that of the cooked prawns in our steamboat. gan's and lta ang's faces weren't any better.
the game of zong ji mi ma is the most played game to finish up leftover foods and CANS OF BEER. i deduced that after last night, and of course at the new year eve's chalet.
the laundry area which was used to dry up clothes was momentarily transformed into our dining area. unknowingly, after all the makan and liquor, the very same area was transformed into a dance floor, with
no doubt screaming through the speakers and nick, yau, terence and the hey-although-my-face-is-damn-red-but-i-am-not-dunk ewen showing their clubbing moves in the dark. instead of bar top dancing, our yen show us what is chair top dancing. i don't know if that's illegal. it took quite sometime to legalise bartop dancing, you know?
moments like these will definitely linger in the sea of memories for quite some time. it's the time spent with friends and the appreciation of the company with each other that define happy moments.
fortunately, i did not suffer any hangover, and my direct boss didn't come. have quite a few things to settle. *busy* in short.
generally, i am prepared for chinese new year.are you?
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! GONG XI FA CAI!!!
and i really mean happy...
cya!
NEWSFLASH!!!
comments back! miss you so much...
KTV night
seriously, but who took away my comments?
argg...
anyway, chinatown's really crowded when the 'color-coordinated-went-wrong' group went there. it's like a super-duper long pasar malam, and the festive season atmosphere's real strong. the gals can really shop at anywhere, even OG chinatown. no harm though. poor ziyang and me. love the yong tao hoo noodles and the hawker centre.
i do agree with sian ying that ziyang can hit those high notes, but me taking part in a singing com? sian ying: think again. but that night's really fun. tired though, having to stay out till 0230 am and reaching home almost 0330 am. Madness.
finally got my berms at POA in Bugis, after looking for gan's shoes. delighted :)
thanks for all the pictures taken and here's a peek at the night's KTV.
enjoy.
happiness comes from within.
Feeling much better...
the music's from love actually. it has a calming effect. if laughter is the best medicine, then i think music is the next. the medicine in healing the much disturbed soul. totally agree that the week's been a rollercoaster ride for some...
few responses from the recent bulletin i posted at friendster. most gals think that ns is free and easy and without worries, they think that the guys should still plan the cg outing. well basically they meant me. anyway, cassia said i became more 'farnie' and kelvin thinks my bulletin put a smile on his face. didn't expect that the not-so-seriously-written and meant-to-be-funny bulletin has such an effect. *flattered*
chinatown outing with color-coordinated people is still hanging rather loosely. though it's more or less confirmed that we will meet, but somehow, i still have this feeling that it will be called off. hope not. but defintely will hunt for my yes-you-are-out-there-and-i-will-get-you berms before meeting the rest. budget's still an important factor.
chinese new year is coming. faster than i expected.
and who took away my comments?!? :(
Action speak louder than words.
gotta sleep soon. run's tomorrow.
Disappointment
totally disappointed... and not the first time...
period.....
Desserts for thoughts...
i know it's crazy to blog twice a day, and especially almost immediately after the previous entry, but something i suddenly remembered that i really need to blog.
2 days ago, during a rehersal for a presentation for the visit by some VIPs, nick suddenly mentioned, and i quote from him, ' you know, i was so worried when CI wanted all the attached out personnel to come back to present. i was afraid that jeremy would be angry, you know. but when he saw me present and say that i could present on that day itself, i was relieved. *mixed feelings*. i am pleased that i am the one presenting and don't have to ask jeremy back'.
... ... ...
am i always angry?
i am not reprimanding anyone or blaming anyone, and if i should it would be myself, but just that i need to reflect on myself.
... ... ...
let silence answer my doubts.
It's Mr Nice today!
i really have no idea at all what has got into me. i am have this sudden gush of enthusiam in me, with the idea of having a cg 03/00 outing even the class is like 'disappearing into thin air', initiated people to come up ideas for feng's present, thanking wen for her marvellous testimonial, and even having the thought of listing all those people whom i still remember and their birthdays.
this year is a special year. it's the year of my 21st birthday. yea, yea, what's so great about that right? that means many of my friends are celebrating their 21st birthdays too. 21 years of human life. what's so great about it. for many, it's just another day of the life, but what have i achieved during these 21 years?
Yan is thinking of celebrating her hatchday in genting. feng's inviting all of us to ktv. what about me? am i going to 'make it big'? how am i going to make it one of teh most memorable birthday?. definetly no barbeque because in the end, it's me who will take care of all the trash. i don't want this special to be a tiring one. what is special? i want to make it special in such a way that all my closest family and friends are with me, even if it's just a simple hawker centre meal.
i want them to know no matter what squabbles or unhappiness we used to have, they are just the pieces to the jigsaw of life.
i will think how. maybe many small meals with different group of friends. photos must be taken to remember this day.
i should start compiling of whose birthdays are coming soon, especially those whom i haven't met for upteen years. i believe even a simple msg day will make their day.
people like jasmine, yingkai, wayne, wenbin, hongda, 03/00 pple, ahband pple, and of course, those whom i always met, the always-colour-coordinated-pple, the 'gang of 5' and camp mates.
went to watch the school of rock on monday. love it. it's a 8 out of ten. talented kids, although real humour that tickles are lacking at the beginning. i didn't know rock can be so nice and beautiful.
ok, that's all for now.
READ BETWEEN THE LINES adapted from
The School of Rock
Crazy in love? Not Me!
this song can't seem to get out of my head since i've got the
SMASH! CD... love the dymanic rhythm... so here i am posting the lyrics on my blog so i can uh oh uh oh whenever i want to...
[Intro - Jay Z]
Yes!
It's so crazy right now!
Most incredibly, it's ya girl, Bee,
It's ya boy, young.
[Intro - Beyonce:]
You ready?
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
[Intro - Jay Z]
Yea, history in the making,
Part 2, it's so crazy right now
[Verse 1 - Beyonce]
I look and stare so deep in your eyes,
I touch on you more and more every time,
When you leave I'm begging you not to go,
Call your name two or three times in a row,
Such a funny thing for me to try to explain,
How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame.
'Cuz I know I don't understand,
Just how your love your doing no one else can.
[Chorus - Beyonce]
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's
Got me looking so crazy right now (in love)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch
Got me looking so crazy right now (your touch)
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss
Got me hoping you'll save me right now
Looking so crazy in love's,
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
[Verse 2 - Beyonce]
When I talk to my friends so quietly,
Who he think he is? Look at what you did to me,
Tennis shoes, don't even need to buy a new dress,
If you ain't there ain't nobody else to impress,
The way that you know what I thought I knew,
It's the beat my heart skips when I'm with you,
But I still don't understand,
Just how the love your doing no one else can.
[Chorus - Beyonce]
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's
Got me looking so crazy right now (oh crazy)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch (you're in love)
Got me looking so crazy right now (love!)
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss (hey!)
Got me hoping you'll save me right now
Looking so crazy in love's, (hey)
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
I'm Looking so crazy in love's,
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
[Verse 3 - Jay Z (Beyonce)]
Check it, let's go
Young Hov y'all know when the flow is loco,
Young B and the R-O-C, uh oh, (oh)
Ol' G, big homie, the one and only,
Stick bony, but the pocket is fat like Tony, Soprano, (oh no)
The ROC handle like Van Axel,
I shake phoneys man, You can't get next to,
The genuine article I go I do not sing though,
I sling though, If anything I bling yo,
a star like Ringo, roll like ??
Crazy bring ya whole set,
Jay Z in the range, crazy and deranged,
They can't figure them out they like hey is he insane, (oh no)
Yes sir I'm cut from a different cloth,
My texture is the best fur, of chinchilla.
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
Been dealing with chain smokers,
But how you think I got the name Hova?
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
I been realer the game's over,
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
Fall back young, ever since the label changed over
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
to platinum the game's been wrap, One!
[Bridge - Beyonce]
Got me looking, so crazy, my baby
I'm not myself, lately I'm foolish, I don't do this,
I've been playing myself, baby I don't care
'Cuz your love's got the best of me,
And baby you're making a fool of me,
You got me sprung and I don't care who sees,
'Cuz baby you got me, you got me, so crazy baby
HEY!
[Chorus - Beyonce]
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's (oh love)
Got me looking so crazy right now (lookin' crazy)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch
Got me looking so crazy right now
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss (baby)
Got me hoping you'll save me right now (baby)
Looking so crazy in love's, (whoa!)
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love. (whoa!)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's
Got me looking so crazy right now (your love)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch
Got me looking so crazy right now (your touch)
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss
Got me hoping you'll save me right now
Looking so crazy in love's,
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
don't know how the rest of the album sounds like, but i just lurvvvee this song. maybe for now...
so it's
uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no for now
Boredom
sometimes, i'm wondering. is there a period or season to do something or not to do something? like this is the season of durians and thus you see many durians around the fruit stalls. what do i mean? it's like when i am going out with a bunch of friends, the other bunch would call me up and ask me out, and that doesn't occur once. it's been like that when i am out. this is what i call the 'going out' season.
but now comes the 'stay home' season. my handphone has been longing for a message or a call to ask me out for a cuppa. spiders make the best homes out of my handphone. i am not saying that it is not good to stay at home or what, just that it can be quite boring when you really have nothing to do.
acrtually there are really a lot of things you can do, packing up the things that are lying around the room, read the thick book that i have just bought, and playing that electronic keyboard and coming up with crazy creations of nonsensical musical compositions.
maybe, being at home isn't a bad thing after all.
but sometimes, being at home, some worrying thoughts will come to mind. i don't how others think, but i tend to think a lot when i am alone at home. not a good sign. that is why i always wanted to be out with friends, and i won't be thinking unwanted thoughts and get depression.
must look forward to something, then life won't be that depressing.
but what to look forward to? new year? maybe.
sometimes during weekdays, i so look forward to weekends, thinking that it is time to relax and going out with friends. but when weekends arrive, it can be quite depressing when there are no plans and you are at home and the enthusiam somehow dies off.
this is the time to have fun during weekends. there will not be such a time when i study in uni, especially when i am in chemical engineering.
these 2 days i have been thinking friendships between colleagues. can 2 colleagues be the best of friends? especially when they are in the same genre of work. i believe it can. it's like 2 schoolmates being the best of friends. but when things did not go the way it should be in office or in work, there will definitely be some commotions or misunderstandings, be it obvious or unseen. then, when it's after work time, there will be some uneasiness when they are out together or what.
apparently, i am the more aggressive one, and appear to be angry at any minor fault. i think this is the image i am showing. but in me, i am worried, more than angry. the expressions doesn't suit the feelings. i will fail badly if i am in the acting category of star search (and if i ever join one).
i didn't know i looked angry and when the other party thinks i am angry, he will sorta isolate me. this time, I WILL THINK he is angry for not doing a good job. and thus i will not dare to talk to him as much. this bothering relationship is not healthy at all.
boredom can really inspires a lot of thoughts in me. or is it i am thinking too much.
i really don't know.
a sign that i should get out of the house?
Everything is possible, pssible for you and me.
As the first week of the new year comes to an end...
have been to jp more often these few days. can't seemed to get the perfect bermudas. it's either to ex or too dull. picky me right. cash on the low end once again. have to save wherever possible. but how to save when new year's coming, and cal and sae are ording so soon (have to treat them wat).. and there's nick's and yau's birthday. my finance adviser's been real busy these few days.
life in the new office is quite ok so far. my main concern? afraid can'y live up to new boss's expectations. realised never did most of the things he asked me to do, and still dare to go on off (home in sat morn). he treated me well that's why i am afraid can't repay him back. whatever.
so glad new's year coming. new clothes! money! aren't i a nuisance?
been worried about a few things recently. hope problems will be solved soon.
p/s: i am not angry with anyone. just worried. it's just that face somehow depicts wrong message with what i am thinking. signals been wrong somehow.
The secret to a beautiful life: be happy.
Bye!
Belated happy new year!!!
Yes!!! after 6 days of the new year and i still send my greetings... a bit the slow.
haven't been updating my blogs recently, so felt a bit lost of how to start or what to write. a new year should mean that new year resolutions. for me? same old thing: to get slimmer and more handsome. haha! SERIOUSLY. to get slimmer. to be more intelligent and more mature in my thinking. i felt that in certain ways, i'm still a bit childish. suddenly realise that i have quite a few resolutions to make and thus decided to list them down.
1. to be slimmer (seriously)
2. to be more intelligent and more mature
3. to be more cool-tempered even in stressed situations (although slighty difficult)
4. to have more faith in myself
5. to enjoy and appreciate moments with friends and family
resolutions are useless if made and not practised. so for now, these should be it. i will make resolutions as i get along with my life.
so many things happen in the last week. let me re-cap...
love the sand and sea at sentosa's siloso beach last week. enjoy the moments at pris's and zy's chalet. although there are the moments when gary rolled up all the blanket to himself, leaving to curl up like a shrimp and me sniffing throughout the same of beach volley and countdown at tanjong beach, there are still extreme fun moments when we performed the ultimate water ballet during the first night at the chalet's pool and the sun and sand on me during the beach volley ball and kayaking. the countdown party at tanjong beach is joyously celebrated with dance, music, squeezing and fireworks. my first official countdawn though. ktv all the 2nd night is madness. but sleep and flu came to me early and i tucked myself comfortably under the blanket while zy's friends still happily crooning away and pris's frens mahjonging in their room. the last 2 days are certainly the delightful finale to 2003.
thought could get a mc on 2nd day of 2004 but failed. so work.
my new boss is on leave so quite a peaceful day. met yan and lix for dinner at jp and got a mocca cake for yau's birthday. luv the cake. zong ji mi ma to finish up the remaining cake and more cups of water came to sight. the rest is history.
got an early ride home from the new boss. delighted. met shan, pris and zy at cosy bay. real cosy as the name suggests, as the wind gently carass my hair. ice cream, fries and chicken wings put away the thoughts for dieting for now. an unexpected greeting from liao, who is with friends.
sun is shopping day with lix and yan. got a t shirt from ddp.
work again, but quite ok at a wing.
for now, its movie time at common room.
a new year, a new beginning
