Exams Blues
Contradiction again. I am not actually feeling the blues as much as previous years. Probably it's already my final year and maybe immune to exam fever. Somehow, I felt that this time, I take it much more easily than how I used to face it. Am I too slack, and not wanting it as much as I want? I don't know.
On the other hand, I am sort of in a loss. I am at a stage where slight better results would put me in a next higher class (well just say I am slightly below average, and being in the next class doesn't mean I am will be in the top few percent of the cohort). But based on my performance throughout the semester, I doubt that's going to happen. So the dilemma is should I really aim to be in that next higher class, failing which will leave me in another distraught? But if I don't try, how would I know I can't get it?
Well, it's too late to make any decision now, as my first paper is tomorrow. My strategy has been trying my best and not giving myself too much stress. Maybe a little too lax, as I am able to blog now instead of studying.
Though I really want to be in that higher class, I have to constant convince myself that the current state I am in is perfectly fine, and I will not deem as stupid as I am where I am now.
My self confidence is at stake.
Oh no, I don't know what I am saying.
Period then. Back to the notes. Wish me luck!
Updates
I am at a loss for better title. Anyway I am still alive and kicking although I missed more than 2 weeks of entries. Been busy with a lot of things, useful and non-useful. Been in the ups and downs in my life too, that make me realised the importance of the people around me.
Well, all I can say its that something terrible and what I wouldn't forget for quite some time happened 2 weeks back. It takes great courage to think back that situation, and everytime I think about it, shivers and chills were sent down my spine. All I want to say now is everything seems more or less ok now, but I have grown up slightly, if not, a lot, from this incident. It made me realise how teh people around me actually cared for each other, although there are apparent nagging and ignorance caused some times.
Yup, been busy too with projects, assignments, and deadlines. But in the midst of these businesses, I have been going out (maybe too frequently), meeting up with friends and stuff, (including non betting mahjong session). Well at least these gatherings neutralise the couped up stress within me.
Facebook has been taking up TOO MUCH TIME. I really need to find a way to minimise the time used in facebook.
Maybe, I might not update this blog for quite some time, as exams are approaching.
Till then.
PS: I realised I have a hidden talent of drawing using a mousepad on the laptop. Haha.
