Before August arrives...
well, just minutes before august arrives and i tear a new page of the calendar,i just want to say july has been moments of real ups and downs. this week is the bottom of the valley. feeling rather, or should i say, extremely down. nothing seems to be right. anyway, just some overall updates of what i have been doing, if anything useful at all.
mon: driving cum help gary move in to pgp.
tues: home and packing stuff.
wed: father on leave. shopping for stationary and clothes. spend a lot.
thurs: matric day. hunger near to death.
fri: packing, bidding, moving into pgp plus cleaning of pgp room.
today: driving, bidding, move more stuff to pgp and excursion for parents to pgp.
i have been rejecting invitations to gatherings and outings due to the down mood, and of course involved with stuff. not a good sign. pre-school symptoms? maybe.
sianz.
p/s: look out for new grp blog set up by sy.
Happy Birthday!!! Zhihui!!!
it's not supposed his actual day of his birthday yet, and due to school starting so soon, we decided to celebrate
zhihui's a bit earlier (actual date is 27 july). anyway, we had the feast at fish and co (once again), but this time i tried too-many-fries-no-fresh-prawns-seafood platter for one. it's darn filling and as metioned, the prawns were not fresh. anyway, enjoyed company of
wen, lix and
ky. i almost forgot that we had a cake stood by with fish and co, and thus i ate until so full that i amost could not an atom of chocolate cake into my mouth. what's more is that we even ordered chocolate milkshake, despite the chocolate cake. it's like a chocolate buffet and of course a sinful treat. (all the beach volleyballing and running during NUS camp has put to waste) anyway here are some of the night's captures!
Hui ge and his choco cake!
the sinful chocolate treat
a sighting of unknown species outside PS
as
yan and
wen came from hall camp,
yan didn't bring the exclusive present, so will be meeting later again for the presentation of the
precious one!
love ya.
ps: just downloaded
MSN messenger. if you have one, please add me using my yahoo add! had great fun bitching with my NUS og group. Hmmm, since when i have become such a
gossip-mongger? whatever!
Revamp of Blog!
Have a chosen a new design for this blog. given a new and fresh touch although having chosen from templates. hope you liked it.
anyway had a great day yesterday at the ktv session with our OG,
xenus! so glad quite a number of us turned up. drew some conclusions from the session yesterday.
1.
Guo Yong aka pageant rep can pose as
andy lau the 2nd.
2.
Jiasheng should be in some rock band. he can pull off
xing yue tuan so well. he has a powerful voice, and he also like oldies!
3.
Vivien,
Yuwei and
Fang fang can be the next S.H.E.
4.
Gareth is the next eng pop sensation.
5.
Yuwei has started NUS K group which apparently no one seems interested.
6.
Kian Ann can really sing!
7.
KC is the emotional crooner.
8.
Weiting and
Mandy are
Jeff Chang aka
Zhang Xing Ze's fans.
9.
Jon, Jian Chye and
Liyun should sing more!! Your beautiful voices are not heard!
10.
Zhisheng can be the next
Ah Niu or
Ben Xiao Hai group.
Weiting and
Kian Ann have to leave early for appointments.
well after KTV sessions, met up with
Suraj. had BK and talked lots of nonsense and sensitive topics. although we occupied a large space in BK, i think our voices occupied the whole of BK! issues about sex, marriage, and stuff like that continued when we thought we had spend long enough time at BK and thus proceeded to Youth Park!
Jon left early for tuition commitments.
Suraj left too for his cafe, i think.
Alvin made a short appearance.
Then came
Yuhui from work and
Pak Loon.
after much discussions and due to
Yuhui's hunger, we headed to the open-air style temporary hawker centre for delicious yum yum food. had unbelievable
bak ku teh, satay, carrot cake, hao jian, stingray!
then headed for home! tired!
Yuwei and pageant rep, Guo Yong
Guo Yong and moi!
a sign of satisfaction!!
looking forward to chalet this sun.
jiasheng's bdae!
tata!
p/s: glad to look pretty in pink, something different for me as i wore my new pink polo t shirt yesterday. and please leave comments for prev blog entry! read my prev blog entry!
The Quest for answers in Life
I think sonetimes staying at home for 2 consecutive days can make me mad. I have been doing a lot of unnecessay thinkings these 2 days, which might make me go
gaga. anyway, i don't know if anyone of you has this feeling, but after days of enjoyment and when i am suddenly at home and have nothing to do, i felt that life could be a little meaningless. i have suddenly lost the energy and zest to do anything. for yesterday and today, i have done nothing but glue to the google box, sleep, eat, play mahjong with nobody other than the computer and surfing the net. even now as i am writing, i can't find the best words to express myself. everything seems to go so wrong.
but before i forget, i think
Get Real (ChannelNewsAsia) is quite a good programme. today's episode discussed the issue of how real reality tv is.
some issues just popped into my mind as i was daydreaming. i have always wondered why some people can be so optimistic, but why can't? apparently on the surface, when i am hanging out with friends, i am always appearing to be so cheerful and happy, but of course, when night falls and i am tried, i will show my worn out face. but don't get me wrong, when i hang out with people, people who i care, people whom i consider my friends, i am really delighted. i enjoy every moment, though sometimes, i can be really tired and seem to be igorant. but i really do appreciate everyone's company.
but when there's no one around, and when i am all by myself, i can be quite pessismistic. i can get quite down so easily. i lose the zest and energy to do anything too easily. i feel sad unnecessarily. i always compare myself with other people, and feel why am i always on the losing end.
i know i shouldn't compare myself with others because i live for myself and for others, but things are much easier than done.
for instance, i always.....
forget about it. some things are better left unmentioned.
i always tell people to live happily, but i can't do it myself. i like people around me to be happy, because happy people make me happy.
once again, i live for the others.
i should be firm, firm in telling myself that i should do what i think is right and what i want.
i realise that many things i do are because people are doing the same things. gary needs a hall to live in. i applied so as to accompany him. i applied for chem engineering because people around me who are smart are applying for chem engineering, and so when i applied, i will be in this group of 'smart'. i didn't initiate in joining union camp. gary says it would be fun. i joined.
well, i believe all the above mentioned are minor stuff, but i am afraid that these 'minor' stuff would affect how i think and my way of working in the future, ie no mind of my own, and will be deemed as indecisive.
but i am glad that i still stay firm in going against what i believe is morally unhealthy. in army, you are so vulnerable to pick up smoking. well, it's true that those who smoke
appear to be cooler and more manly or with more style, but this is so because they lack confidence in themselves. or maybe smoking can
apparently make them look slimmer or run faster or relieve stress.
i don't like smoking, and never ever will smoke!
i have also tried to talk to my army friends to cut down on smoking or quite smoking. it isn't easy for them because they are already hooked on smoking and it's very very difficult to quit. well, i persuade them to quit because i still consider them as friends, but if they don't listen, it's actually quite limited to what i can do, cos at the same time i don't want to hurt any friendship.
it's quite evident that i am trying to make a point for someone (non-army friend). it's difficult for me to talk to the person face to face because we are such good friends. but as good friends, i hope the best for the person, and if i have to make my stand clearer by facing the problem more directly, i will, and of course need some support.
i am writing this, once again, because i care. there is no underlying meaning or what. (i am not good with words!)
anyway, the issue of searching answers of questions in life has come across my mind too. shan always wonders (i not sure if she still wonders why) why are we on earth? nick seeks the questions of the lack company and understanding of close friends and family but fails to see people who care for him. i ask myself for my pessimism. the poor man wonders why the rich is wealthy, and the rich wonders why the poor is happier. a recent report states that nigerians are the happiest people on earth although poverty still poses a problem. americans, who are supposedly to be wealthier, are ranked 16th. we are continuosly seaching for answers. jason han always thinking of solutions to getting rich. yangfei is searching the true essence of beauty and perfection. sian ying wonders if she should be an intern with SPH, and ziyang searching for the true cuisine. gary wonders about everything, but most of all, love. pris is looking for that pink umbrella. (it's still in my house)
at least some people are heading to somewhere, and living for themselves. i can see that ziyang is heading towards the cuising sector, sy being a jounalist, pris being a psychologist. qiwen and ky have found love. but poor me still not knowing where i am heading too.
i know i shouldn't complain because there are many other people (like those in nigeria) are living a life less fortunate than mine. i should be thankful with what i have. i have friends, have family and a life at least that is not that boring.
so people, if you are reading this, i will try to look at the brighter side of life, and i hope you will. there are so many beautiful things out there that we often neglect. appreciate what we have and not complain what we don't have, because once you lose what you used to have, you learn things in a harder way.
p/s: i am glad i have a blog because i am feeling much better after writing what i feel, though probably no one will read this. and if i didn't mention your name in this blog, it doesn't mean i have forgotten about you. it's impossible to write the names of every single one i knew, but i always have thought of you in one way or the other, and i hope you have too.
so i urge fellow people, in making my day, and in making your day, leave a comment or two if you have realised the things you have and try to lessen the complaints pf what you don't have. or just leave down your name so that i know you are once here.
i hope this blog will be the one with the most comments.
love you all people!!!
Sentosa, Lovely Sentosa!
the sun is out finally and we, children, can go out and play, tan and have lotsa fun. so
sentosa, here we come!!
although i haven't been to beaches in other countries before, i think that if you need to find somewhere to busk under the sun and let your feet bury under the hot scorching sand in singapore, sentosa might be a not bad place, although it might be a bit far for some and quite inconvenient. but with the improvement in the mrt and bus service, i believe it is made much easier to travel to sentosa.
and so there we were,
ziyang, sian ying, shan, pris and me, spending whole of monday noon, under the blazing sun, enjoying the game of beach volley, frisbee, and kayaking, although none of them lasted very long. most of us spent much time applying sun tan lotion, taking pics, and
ZY practising his frisbee throwing, and of course indulging ourselves in food, chatting and laughter.
time flew past, and the burnt bodies were signs that we spent enough time under the sun, and it's time to pack our stuff and leave the island. and as we were discussing about my SP,
Carol, i bumped into her as i was heading to the showers. many of us are quite tanned, especially me, having yet to recover from the previous sun burnt from union camp, turned into a red lobster, as how
shu yau put it. yup! bumped into him while going home, surprisingly because it's a weekday.
Mac became the food for replenishment, although we weren't really drained out. ironically, we were chatting about the movie,
Super size me, while we were eating Mac, and discussing how we shouldn't spoil ourselves with this fast food. anyway, we left for home and bumped into long-time-no-see-almost-disappeared-into-thin-air-Sispec-bunkmate
Lua Shi xiong, the brother of huijing (Ahband mate).
in conclusion, burnt-exhausted, yet satisfied and glad.
sayonara!
Tired!
well, not that actually, just that felt a little lethargic and don't what to write for the title. went to have pasta with
KY, Qiwen, Lix, Weide at Pastamania, although I didn't take the pasta. Stomachache! after the tucking-in, went to shop around at TM. failed attempts at shopping made us to decide to head to
Weide's house to play Uno stacko and mahjong, the latter which is more enjorable. lix left early while at Century square and Alvin joined us.
the moment just before qiwen toppled the stacko!
that's all for today.
Once again, I AM NOT A CHEONGSTER!
do i look like one to you?
or am i becoming one? hope not.
i think my group quite on, we met up on monday for a movie, Mean Girls, but since it's quite a last minute thing, only about 10 plus of us went.
i had a great time with the OG at Marina South having steamboat last tuesday evening. real fun trying to whip up a great dish and with all the laughter and all the photo takings. quite surprised that actually quite a lot of people turned up, more than 20 of us. anyway below are some of the captures of the evening's event, with my really can't make it camera-phone.
my internal SP,
shihui aka
Minnie! ( i'm mickey)
my fright night partner aka renny's SP,
shuohan
my counsellor ic who's the same ager as me,
KC
the pretty gals,
shuohan, and
romona, our group's pageant rep
the hunk, 1 of the group counsellors and ex Mr NUS,
Pak Loon and the
hunk-not
the crazy sisters,
Yuwei and
Yuhui, and
Pak Loon
Say Cheese!! Group Photos!!
Well most of the photos are uploaded but some aren't. it's quite a hassle, but most faces are up!
i think i'm quite crazy. cheonging twice in a week, once during the union camp and the other on wed, during
Mambo Night at
Zouk. but i enjoyed the music, mostly retro. actually didn't wanna go but
pris and
shan are interested so just joined them. moreover, many groups are there including
renny's and
gary's. saw quite a lot of familiar faces, like
gerald from AH band and
Daniel from camp (PLC driver), yup surprisingly but true, also bumped into
Nian Long. interesting retro songs like
ye lai xiang, and many i don't remebered. pop songs are also played but too bad my favourite
Crazy in Love is being left out. i think that's so much cheonging for now. reaching home at 4 am is not a good thing, especially when your dad's up already and getting ready for work. anyway here's a snapshot of that night!
everyone's dancing and moving in togetherness to the music.
me, pris and shan.
hmmm. quite an interesting holiday. but enjoyable moments don't last forever, it's back to the books in like 2 weeks time and having not studied for almost 3 years, i hope everything will be fine. anyway going to Sentosa next week. hope that the sun will be up high!
tata!
Back!!!
after days of disppearance from the world, i am finally back from camp. wow it's almost unbelievable. but first here's what we did.
Day 1 - ice breaking, cluedo, counsellors' performace.
Day 2 - sponsors' talk, pool games, fright night.
Day 3 - (Sentosa) amazing race, beach games, (back in NUS)freshies' performance.
Day 4 - Wargames, SP Dinner, cheong night, pageant.
Day 5 - Farewell.
at first, i admit i felt quite negative towards the camp but after being with my group
Xenus, my attitude changed.
i felt that for the first few days, my group is rather cold and unsupportive and this contributed to my coldness and unwillingness to open up. seriously i knew no one in my group at first. so paiseh have to do so much things that i quite unwilling to do like cheering and initiating stuff.
i thought that our group may come last at the end of the camp. we were really quiet compared to other groups, especially to
Gary's group. we didn't really win anything the first few days, and morale is really low.
i believe that we have to do something in order to come last or what. luckily our ic really became more on and took initiative to bond everyone and thus the morale got better. i think it picked up gradually from
Sentosa, and when we got so much support during the freshies' performance, the morale is high.
after feeling that our spirit is more or less there, i felt i have to play a part too, and so i went crazy during
wargame and took lead in cheers. i heard from one of the seniors that our group cheered quite good and got compliments from other counsellors. and although
gary's group got best group, i heard that our group were just behind them.
although personally i didn't win anything, like
gary who got
2nd in
pageant during cheong night and
chong han who got
3rd in pageant and
best freshie, i think i have enjoyed myself. thanks to
gary for introducing the camp to me.
fun was definitely not missed, but i also realised something, more negative. i realised how looks are so important. beautiful people are always the topic of people and during
SP dinner, looks are the deciding factor to see if he or she got a good sp. good looking gals in the group have people to talked with and shuai guys are always surrounded by gals.
well i am not jealous or what, just realising the real world and how realistic people can be. i think i also like that, so cannot comment so much.
i think i quite prud having good looking friends like
Gary and
Chong Han. even i not in pageant or what, i still can say that hey look there's my friends. and
cheong night made me realise how crazy and absurb NUS gals can be. they can drink more and be much more drunk than the guys in our group. i got quite a shock.
so this is what tha camp is like. really hope our relationship will maintain for as long as possible.=p
Photography Attempts
Finally realised how to get the photos out of my phone to the computer. and so tried a few shots. realised the quality sucks but still... it's some attempts, so here they are...
these 3, i named them
'Me and the Washing Machine' Series
actually quite a few evenys happened for the past few days, but just couldn't find the time and leisure and pleasure to write so much as for now, i actually rushing so as not to miss my variety show on tv (nothing surprising for a TV addict like me)
will update more maybe tomorrow!
