At a loss
I really don't know what to do next. I have been staring at the question for more than a day and yet nothing seems to go right. And time is running out. It is not like writing an essay when you can come up with something from nothing. In engineering, there IS a correct answer. It is either right or wrong, never somewhere in between.
I really feel very useless and stupid. Nothing seems to go right for me. I thought this time would be a good time for me to pull up my cap. I doubt so.
It's the feeling of uselessness and helplessness that makes me feel so down. I really don't know what to do next. Really.
For a moment, I just want to break down and give up. But that won't do any good.
Neither here nor there. Can someone really tell me what to do?
I think I am in the wrong course, and yes, it's a little too late to realise that when I am already in my last year of the course. I am just not up to it.
What can I do, other than continuing this route that had been wrongly chosen?
Jeremy, can you even be more dumb than ever?
What's the problem?
What's the problem with me? It seems that I am at war with everyone around me, including the closest ones, and most importantly, including myself. Is it the stress that is at work? Or just the lack of sleep that causing raging hormones to steam up the temper?
People around me have told me to relax. I have tried, maybe not hard enough.
And the problem is, I am not sure what I am so worried about? Is it the seemingly piling up of work? Or just that I feel that the world is against me?
I need to take a step back, breathe and relax.
The world can be a better place.
I should be doing my work...
But I am doing everything else except work. Resonance's gig is next Friday evening, and we have been frequent practices. Recruitment talks, tuition, project meetings, assignments, this and that all take up the time. And I have not really looked at my FYP yet.
Anyway, just to do some mini advertisement. Resonance is going to have a mini-concert next Friday.
A Walk To September
Resonance Mini Concert
Date: 14th Sept 2007, Friday
Time: 7:00pm
Venue: NUS YIH Function Room (Next to Japanese Restaurant)
Tickets: $5 only
Tickets are running out fast. So grab your tickets soon.
