e Wheel of Life

Monday, February 28, 2005

I want to cry...

I want to cry...

I really feel like breaking down. The stress level is beyond my limit.

help...

I could not take it anymore...

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Might be...

It might be that I am stressed.

But at least for now, I have seen it. The truth.

One should live for himself. Helping others only when there are benefits for yourself. People will just forget that you have ever helped them.

These people are called acquantances. Maybe, this term is too good for them.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Busy

won't be posting any post any time soon... mid terms...

just wanna say ain't in the best of moods. many things...

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Perfect Valentine's Day

And why is my blogger home page in Chinese?

anyway, how more perfect can valentine's day be when my handphone is exploded with complaints of why don't their flowers get sent, or why are the flowers so small?

well not my fault!

maybe next time should reconsider working with anyone, if ever again.

but not all is bad, as the acapella group i am in gets to sing in Munchie Monkey, and get free plate of Spagetti!

anyway, sorry ziyang for the unfortunate of your flowers.

and to you all who scolded me for the small flowers:

maybe i am not a florist.

but that doesn't mean you can throw shouts and complaints to me!

i am not mad. in fact i am grateful as i have learnt a lot of stuff!!

Happy valentine's day!

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Sociology class

really busy these few days with V day stuff (nope i am not planning for anyone special, in fact, i am so free on v day itslef that i am in engin club Valentine's day project, to keep myself busy and to make me forget that i am still unattached.) but i really need to take this down, cos it may just happen only.

today in sociology class, we are on the topic on culture and family. and while we are doing on the culture part, my amazing tutor who said 'fucked up' not once but a few times in class, of course not to scold us but to demostrate something but i am surprised anyway, decided to show her youth and enthusiam (she's a master student doing her thesis in mental illness), she came up with role playing 'games' as she put it, and she decided to make it fun! and so in the bright early morning, the class was split into groups and we were tasked to different things. the first group was supposed to be paired up into a couple of guys and gals, in which each couple, one consisted of both guys and the other both girls, were supposed to hold hands and walked along the corridor of arts classroom. in other words, a guy had to hold a guy's hands and the girl to another girl's hand. surprisingly, someone did volunteer to do the job, after looking at the next task.

this was what my group did. not holding hands, but to go up to some unknown person, and to say 'how are you' and try to maintain a conversation for as long as possible. i didn't do it cos jiejun seemed more enthusiastic and willing to do the 'dare', so i sat down and observed.

the next task was outrageous. no one did in the end. the instructions were simple. to wear your underwear inside out, as a new 'fashion statement', and to strut your inner beauty to the people of the Arts faculty. a pity no one had the courage to do that. not me too.

next was easy. a girl was to ask the contact number from any unknown guy. jun li got a great deal when she got a number from a 'supposedly cute' ang moh. that's what she said lah.

the last was easy too. to pick up a call in the absolute silent library and to talk on the phone like no one's business.

well, the main purpose to do all these, is to go again culture. but what define culture? can't the above tasks be in our culture? we talked about sanctions and rules and linking to expectations and assumptions. for instance, guys who hold hands are gay and gals who do that are just best friends.

interesting class! begin to like sociology classes.

what's next? everyone stripping naked for the sake of art?

hmmmm..

realised i could be multi tasked. attending lessons, mending stalls for V day, collect goods for sales, went for acapella prac. and trying to stay sane and awake.

well at least, it got me out of unnecessary depression.

the day didn't end too nicely as i got a hostile attitude from the woman from muee when i called to tell them that junli will be late to collect the goods. well at least i told her that we would be late right?

hmmm...

but overall, it's a good day!

roses for v day? i have good deals. call me!!

$2 for 1 stalk of rose (non bouquet)
$4.50 for 1 bouquet of 1 stalk.

call me for more prices!

and i am singing on v day itself.

and oh yah!

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND GONG XI FA CAI!!!

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

The art of complaining

It may not be simple as it always seems.
You may execute your utmost talent in mastering the art.
You blame everything under the sky for your mishaps.
You even blame the sky.
A skill I have yet to master.
The art of complaining.

I realise I have been complaining a lot. about the tons of work. and if there's no tons of work, i complain why i have been slacking. and if i have time to slack, i complain why am i slacking. nothing is sufficient for me, and i have realised i have lost the art of writing as well. i complain again.

haiz.

i am never satisfied.

maybe it's good that the university authories havent received my complain letters on why there's lectures on chinese new year's eve.

not yet a master of complaining.