I see the end of a path, I see the beginning of a new route.
too tired when i reached home yesterday, so didn't make any attempt to post. however, after receiving a message from
jason han today, the urge to blog came suddenly and here i am...
i can't remember vividly what he wrote but he mentioned that although he and his batch would miss me and i was his friend and a lot more... i can't bear myself to write such mushy stuff. can't believe jason could write such
wonderful things.
well, i began to ponder. as much as i would like to leave the army, there is still much unwillingness to leave all my friends. as much as i am happy and excited to go, i also felt sadness.
i believe that's life. you meet new friends, and at some point, there's dispute and unhappiness, but at the end of everything, you gain some, you lose some. disputes either make your friendship stronger, or that mark the end of a relationship.
what jason sent to me is really comforting. at least i knew i brought a bit of happiness to someone, at least in other people's eyes, there is still a presence of
jeremy.
maybe , i am not a wonderful colleague to work with, or maybe i am not a great bunkmate, but i hope i did not fail as a friend, as someone whom anybody can talk to.
some people said army will force you to grow up. well, there is some agreement to that statement to some extent, but growing up is a tough process. you began to see your devilish self, you began to see that the world is not perfect at all, you began to see that everyone and everything is not the way they seem to be. false images are flooding everywhere and everytime.
there's still some doubt if i have really grown, but i have definitely see more things, truely yet sadly, the bad side of the world, but i have also see the good people around.
well, i will miss every single atom of all my friends i have made, and i believe we will meet again in the next chapter of the journey of my life...
miss you all already...
It's a BAG, BAG, world!
i lack of bags and i am glad my
ALL my friend knew about it...
and now i have bags from all over the world and all kinds...
my
primary school friends gave me a
haversack-bag from
OP, and of course, a t-shirt, beach shorts and a pencil case, all coutersy of
OP.
my
JC friends gave me a
sling bag from CONVERSE and a wallet from
Billabong, wrapped with a CHICKEN ESSENCE box, secured with CHICKEN ESSENCE tape. and when i opened the box, i thought drinks were all they gave... HA!
my
camp friends gave the most ex bag i ever had, a
crumpler 'love at first bag' base-toucher-haversack, otherwise known as a peanut cos of the colour.
i
love all of them. so now, i have bag when i go out with friends, bag for mon, wed, fri and another one for tues, thurs and sat when i am in uni!!
mum, dad, grandma gave the most practical,
$$$$.
aunts and families gave gift vouchers from
metro.
thanks everyone!! i appreciate everything and most of all the LOVE and HAPPY WISHES you all have given to me. Treasure every single atom of it!!
P/s: so sorry to
nick and gang at
chinablack. couldn't join u all cos
relative left really late and couldn't possibly leave all the cleaning to my
mum and dad.
Fei: hope you will get over the lost phone real soon!!!
Shan: it's ok u couldn't make it. your exams are more important! the call meant a lot to me!!
Pris: so sorry can't wait for you to cut the cake cos of your concert and my friend and cousin have not reached yet.
Lix, wen and kim: so glad you all make it even you all had exams next week.
P/s (again): the fact that i posted four journals one after the other almost immediately showed how excited and happy i was!! thanks to everyone again. without u all, this memory in history wouldn't have happened.
Are you in my Friendster list?
at this birthday celebration, i realised my friends knew each other somehow.
my cousin,
junyi, knew
zhihui (pri) because they are in the same camp.
richard (camp) knew
priscillia and
shannon (band) because they met before in irc band channel.
ziyang (band) knew
jason (camp) because they were in the same
bmt coy and platoon.
yangfei (camp) knew
gary (band) because they were in the same platoon in
echo coy when they were in
SISPEC.
chong han claimed to have seen
priscillia (band)before or was it vice versa?
lixia (pri) knew
gary (band) because they were once in the same
class in
JC.
kim (pri) and
gary (band) knew
guolin (someone i am not very familiar but still knows him) because the former is his JC friend and the latter is his secondary band friend.
did i miss out any link?
oh! i knew everyone of them... all those in my house!!
DUHZ!!
Who moved my CAKE?
horror striked when i went to collect my cake this noon. where is the cake i ordered? the
sales ladies were frantic and almost broke down in front of everyone when they realised the cake had gone missing... they frantically made calls to the
HQ. they were so tensed that they forgot how to make a fax...
although i was standing, appearing to be cool and calm, my heart almost jumped through my mouth when i heard the bad news. it's my
21st BIRtHDAY and what had they done to my cake? what is a birthday celebration without a birthday cake? cool and serene appearance covered the true fear and nervousness inside of me...
so where did the cake go to?
apparently, the
outlet claimed to have faxed the order to the
HQ. the
HQ was supposed to bake the cake. but the
HQ said that they didn't receive this order. so what they have concluded is that when they faxed the order, the invoice containg my order got stuck behind another invoice and was not faxed over.
there was no detailed investigation made so, that verdict was accepted, for now.
anyway and anyhow, the
sales ladies at the
outlet told me not to worry as the
HQ would deliver the cake to my house without any extra charge, just that it would be slightly late, i.e at
7 o clock.
what could i say? i could not possibly tell them to come out with a
3kg cake just like that. so, the still-looking-calm-and-cool me told them it's ok and confirmed with them that they would definitely bring the cake to me, and to my house.
fortunately, the cake arrived at
6.20 pm.
everyone said the cake is
delicious.
Before the Clock strikes 12...
i will like to register this day in my memory crest... and before the clock hits 12 and the next day arrives, i will like to immerse myself in this mood of happiness, blissfulness and many different emotions...
Happy 21st birthday to me!
finally an
adult. am i yet? am i prepared to face this world?
anticipating and excited to be one, or the reject and unwillingness to be one?
i should be happy, and yes i am. but after all the loud happy smiles and blissful faces, some serious thoughts are to be made... that's so me... so philosophical...
ok back to the lighter mood, i believe this is the day when there is the most people in my house...
SO UNBELIVABLE!!! lets do the count...
me,
my dad and
mum,
grandma,
grandpa
22 aunts, uncles, and
cousins from my
mum's side
qiwen, lixia, kim and
zhihui from
pri sch.
gary, ziyang, sianying and
priscillia from
band.
sae, gen feng, fei, jason, chong han, edmund, nick, shu yau, alex, weiwen, kaiyan, terence, ronald, richard, chee hao, benedict and
nian long from
camp
that's
52 people in all...
what
MORE can i say...
too bad
shan had exams and couldn't come...
lta ang, ewen, samuel, xiang zheng didn't come...
lewis, gan and
regulars are in
taiwan, so understandable...
many greeting msgs in the morn, including from
wenbin...
too bad my house is small and can't invite everyone i know to come...
Thanks everybody... you make my 21st birthday a really memorable one!!
ok better post this before the clock strikes 12!!
Last 4 hours before I am an Adult
today is the last day before i turn
21...
today is the last 24 hours i can be as childish as ever...
tomorrow will be the start of a new life...
well 20 years seems to be quite a long time. achievements? quite a few. disappointments? many. anybody's life can be written into a book. but mine?
a significant milestone of growth and maturity.
an important stepping stone to a different person.
a change in thoughts, personality, responsibility and role.
and before i reach there,
and before tomorrow comes,
i wish to treasure the child in me.
many memories in the pitless memory crest.
many many more to come.
the last 4 hours of my youth and zest,
and before i turn twenty-one,
before the clock strikes twelve in its best,
i am always the child having the fun.
Counting down...
;Þ
GOOD FRIDAY
before the day ends...
HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY!!!
May God bless all...
p/s: saw
jasmine once again in cameo as a teacher (again) in channel 8 drama (happy mama) yesterday...
The Interview II
it's over.
well i guess i am not cut to be a scholar.
the nerves got hold of me, instead of my brain. all the preparations prior to the interview went flushing down the drain.
the questions i anticipated they will ask did come out (ha! as if i was going for some exam), but it's just that i didn't answer them accordingly...
signs of a failed interview:
1. blank stares from interviewers
2. pouted mouths from the centre guy (who seemed to be the most nasty of the 3)
3. answers didn't match the questions
4. no noddings of heads to imply agreement...
and so many more...
something positive? nothing!
it's ok. i can take it with deep cuts in the heart from the previous failed interviews. at least i have learnt something, or experienced something.
Sob Sob
i really can take it!!
sob sob *even louder*
Camile out of
American Idol. one more pretty face out.
did some shopping in preparation for my birthday next week. got a very ex cake, some drinks, paper plates and cups. realised that dad spend money as if his pocket is an unlimited cash maker...
friends keep asking me what i want...
money? fame? and still more money...
haha!!
tata!
The Interview
it's a rare moment that i am at home at this time of the day and this day of the week. but if not for the interview with
sembcorp later in the noon, i think i will be going around the camp looking for this and doing that...
nick and
terence helped me in preparation for my interview yesterday. well, it turned an interview that went so wrong, haha...
*laughter just filled wsm's office*
In summary, i came up with 3 main questions they will most probably ask.
1. why do u need a scholarship?
2. why sembcorp?
3. why do sembcorp have to choose you instead of the others? in other words, in what ways are you outstanding?
of course, they will ask me to talk about myself and some common questions.
in addition, i will also ask them 1 or 2 questions to prove myself.
was watching
american idol 2 last night. felt that generally it was quite a weak performance. an advertisement on spore idol was telecasted last night too.
AUDITIONS IN JUNE was what it showed.
finally my last
BOS Duty was over. all i have to say that i have a rather
garang warrant officer as my
DO.
going to read up more on
sembcorp later.
wish me
luck in my interview.
ORD Mood? Not so fast...
finally, it's over. the dining-in that took place on fri is finally over. gone are the days where wo sim suddenly call me to do this and that in preparation for dining-in.
well maybe not really.
anyway, i had to security for that night. that translated to long standing and door opening for VIPs.
preparation for this event is crazy. ok, not THAT crazy. it's just that there were non-uniformity in giving instrcutions, wo sim went mad bout the banner, being instructed around as if there were hundreds of jeremys, getting slightly bruised from the stores, long hours of no food and standing.
it's not crazy right?
anyway, it's an experience after all, being able to see kang sen and oc wearing smart no 2 (a form of suit u wear for military dinner), and me wearing smartly with a tie.
so you see, how to have ord mood when there's till things to do.
tsr test tomorrow, duty on tues, interview for scholarship on thurs.
seems that another busy week ahead.
anyway and anyhow, i must look forward to happy things, so that life would be happier.
went to get fei's present yesterday and met him for dinner and some jap a la carte buffet, with nick, terence and ivan (fei's friend). got him some self-tanner and another product from
origins. what is more appropriate than facial products for him? ha!
didn't realise my cousin is in the finals of miss spore universe until fri. and what is even more surprised? she got 2nd runner-up!! congrats congrats! thought i don't really know her.
wo sim called me uncle when he introduced me to his daughter!!
yet, when i went for a haircut today, the barber charged me at student's rate..
contradicting?!?!
anyway, must look on the
brighter side of life!!
sayonara!
