Uncertainty
There are lot of moments of uncertainty in life, and these moments can arise because options are given to us and we do not know that if the decisions we have made will be good ones. Uncertain moments will also arise when we do not if cannot see the road that lies ahead due to the decision we have made, or that the presence of other factors that will hinder our decision making abilities.
Job seeking isn't that fun after all. It makes me all jittery and uneasy. Waiting for the companies seem so long, and I am really afraid of not getting the desired position or getting into the wrong job. I am now still waiting for a reply from 2 companies, one of which I really wanted it and the other seems to provide a good career but the opportunities to learn about more things are limited. I really hope I can get the desired job. I hate this uncertain feeling.
Been out quite frequently the past week, either in school practicing, going for interviews (which is a good thing), meeting with friends, giving tuitions or just hanging around at home. The charity gig at Laguna Golf Country Club with reso for the National Health Foundation is ok I guess as there are no major hiccups. Moreover, we are treated to a nice 8 course dinner, and it's also an experience with different people (Joy, Lyndley, Meisi, and Yingfen) other than Oops.
Sunday was outing with 5 man gang where we celebrated Zhihui's birthday at Rice Table, an Indonesian restaurant at International Building at Orchard. An ala carte buffet was served, including satay, fried tofu, chicken, soto soup etc. After that we walked around Heeren, and Kim decided to go to the Pre Natas fair at Suntec organised by SA tours. Plans were made to go to Korea. Ktv itches then came and we thus headed to Kbox at Suntec and sang till the nightfall.
I really hope I can get the job I want. Really.
Labels: 5 man gang, feelings, job interview, life, Resonance
Commencement 2008
Yes! I have finally graduated from NUS and Monday was the commencement ceremony. The ceremony itself was actually quite boring, but we get to see the profs in their robes and I finally get to know the names of some of the familiar faces in Chemical Engineering. To some, especially Minghui who was the Valedictorian for the session, it would be the proudest moment ever. Well, I was happy enough to be able to graduate, and I think I did well enough to make my parents proud.
The more interesting part was after the ceremony when we all frantically took out our cameras to take photos with our fellow course mates, just in case we wouldn't have chance to take photos again. So there go our cameras with flashes around the open spaces outside the UCC hall. I also want to thank Gary and Zhihui who came down despite of work and thanks to my primary school friends for the Grad Bear from Build a Bear.
On Tuesday, I took my gown again to UCC, to take photos with Reso people as it was Alan Chong's Commencement. So I took this chance to take photos at places I did not take on the actual day and also with Reso people, doing funny poses.
Let the pictures paint the words!
More photos at my facebook :)
Labels: Graduation
Words from a Full Time Home Stayer
It ain't feeling good at all. I really think I can't stay at home for a long long time. I need a direction and I need a job. Maybe I complain too much and don't do anything at all. Well, technically, I have been actively looking for job openings, but as the days drag by, the drive and optimism just gradually dies down.
It's not I want to go out sometimes, but going out needs money. And no one holds a full time job at home now. I am feeling the stress now, and my confidence just takes a real deep plunge. I am afraid I just can't find one to support the family.
Sometimes, when I am feeling the stress, I just do things that are out of the world, out of my own acceptable morality.
I really need to think properly and sane even in such times.
I need to clear my thoughts.
Labels: feelings
VO III
The fact that I am able to blog on a weekday's morning shows that I am actually still very much jobless. And after the being rejected by SRC (it is really nice of them sending a nice rejection letter which was left on my desk), I begin to realise my lack of interview skills and incapability. Anyway, I am still looking for job, hopefully I will do better in my interview the next times and show what I am actually capable of.
I haven't been doing frequent update of my blogs, and I think I am getting really lazy. Anyway, last week was the mostly taken up by concert preparation and the concert itself. VO III was a great success. Most of the things went off quite smoothly and I think everyone did a great job, no matter be it in the preparation or the performance wise. Everyone really gave it their all. And I think some of them even peaked in their singings during the actual thing as well. I particularly felt that Carpenter's Medley kicked off the show real well. Although I heard a lot of complaints about it by the singers themselves, but it all ended well.
Another favourite was Boogie, where the singers sung and danced their hearts out and although the singing was slightly off, the atmosphere was great and the audience cheered and clapped even before the singing ended.
2nd half was even better when there was a battle between the all girls group and the boy band. In my opinion, I think both groups have done well, but I felt that the girl group had more improvements than the boyband. 2nd half was also when I had my only appearance (finale and encore aside). As always, I did not like the way I sound on my solo, but I felt I really gave my best and did what I could have done. I hope I did not disappoint anyone.
Finale and encore ended the show well. I hope the audience left the concert on a high note as the performers did. We cheered after the concert, took tons of photos and had supper and laughed till I think my tears burst out like no one's business. I think the concert really ended my 4 years in Reso on the highs. Thanks to my classmates, Shuyu, Weian, Mingli, Huahui, Jie Jiun and Kok Lian for coming down. (and Jae who bought the ticket but couldn't come. Hope you settled your problem) And also to Merv and friends, Andy and Marcus. Really appreciated your presence even when you all were tired.
Yesterday was debrief and we viewed the video (courtesy of Zhengyu and friend). And each of us also gave our comments and feelings on the concert and Resonance on the whole. There are moments of laughter and also moments of tears when the some from the graduating batch gave their speeches. Although it hadn't been as smooth sailing for me in these 4 years, I have learnt a lot from Reso and made real good and close friends. I hope that these friendships will remain even after I leave Reso and stepped out into the working world.
I'll miss all of you.
Labels: Resonance
