Are you not entertained?
The lights shine so brightly
The music played so loudly
We sing we dance
And most importantly, we laugh so heartily
Masquerade
The lights are off
and curtains are down
The masks are off
The smiles are out
I am alone, again.
Masquerade
Are you not entertained.
Sometimes I just wonder the things I do.
I am sick...
well, i mean literally. ill!
it's been a long time since i have had a fever. god knows when is the last time. i think it's been so long ago that i didn't how it felt like until my doctor has to tell me that my temperature is 38.1 degree celsius, which equals to fever, I think.
and now i am feeling groggy and all, thanks to the flu medication.
yup, i having a flu as well.
i want to go out and play!
*dazed*
I am being arty farty
Movies I want to watch but haven't got a chance.
1. Alfie
2. The Aviator (Golden Globe - Best Movie (Drama) and Best Actor (Leonardo Di Caprio)
3. My Brother (Korean Movie)
4. Shall We Dance (Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez)
5. Elecktra
Good shows on Arts Central
1. Celeb Portraits (Tues 9pm)
2. No strings attached (Mon 9pm)
There goes my dream cap of 5, and for those who aren't aware what is cap of 5.0, its the NUS version of a perfect score.
sayonara.
When it hits, it hits...
just when everything seems so fine, and you think you can forget all the troubles that haunt you, someone says something or something happend, and it hits you, bringing you back to the ugly reality. Just when you are slowly climbing the ladder, gaining your self-confidence you once lost, trying to forget how high you are and the phobia of height you have, something hinders your way, making you to look down, forcing you to remember your phobia of height.
The self-confidence that you have attained becomes null.
I guess I have to start again, from null.
I'm sad again.
Maybe...
maybe school's that bad after all. at least it takes me out of some unnecessary depression and worries for a moment, although once and again, i still accidentally step into the pit of unhappiness.
time pasts very quickly. before i know it, the week's gone. and weekends coming. in order to achieve my dream C.A.P of 5.0, i've decided not to initiate any outings anymore or sat nights unless resititable temptations inivitations that come from friends, if any.
i've become 1/3 an arts student, taking 2 arts modules out of my 6 modules. that means more readings and more essays, which may not be a bad thing after all. (pardon me, i am consolling myself.) what i lack is the ability to absorb fast enough what i have read and to write what i think. maybe, i will absorb the essence of dressing well and looking good of a typical arts student. maybe not.
intro to jap studies is interesting, making me wanting to go to japan, although xiqian says that we are only in the history part of the lecture. i can't imagine what i will do when we come to the comtemporary and pop culture part of the lecture. maybe i will have my passport ready then, flying to japan any moment.
sociology is boring for the moment, because firstly there are no notes given at the moment, and i spend the 2 hours in lecture copying notes and writing down stuff i don't know if they make sense. but it's interesting to study about the society, i think.
yup, i am still in school, all thanks to a make up lecture today from 2 to 4 pm. there's a choice for me to skip it, but since i aim to achieve my dream score of 5.0, i have decided to attend it.
i realise i keep complaining about boredom to my friends, but actually i have things to do, but just to lazy to really execute them.
i am hungry, but i guess i just skip breakfast for lunch.
sayonara! nihon, 我来也！
Idol has a new name!
Taufik and Sylvester, step aside!!! here's Australian Idol runner up, Anthony Callea. He's good looking, he's a vocal coach, his voice is superb and he's only 21. He has amazing future!!!
here's the video clip. the original version is by celine dion and andre bocelli.
http://www.radioaustralian.com/user/AnthonysChoice.wmv
enjoy, cos its the voice from an angel!
imagine, he's only a runner up. i can't imagine how the winner sounds like.
Things I'm gonna miss
Things I'm gonna miss when school starts
1. SCV
2. staying at home and slacking the whole day
3. not having to worry about breakfast, lunch and dinner
4. reading the newspaper and brooding over the world issues
5. not having to comb my hair everyday and deciding what to wear for school
6. the fortune of having no lessons or rushing from one to the other
7. time spent with friends
8. time not spent with friends
9. KTV
10. everything else
I'm depressed... again.
End of school vacation and school's starting
it may be a good thing after all. school will be starting soon, then i will have less things to bother, maybe just schoolwork.
the starting of the year hasn't been great and i have no idea at all what has come over me. it seems that the temper has got the better of me...
i really feel guilty, after doing something i know i shouldn't have done, but i just can't help it. i feel sorry, but the word seems hard to be pronounced.
i cried in my heart. i have never cried since a long time ago. i have forgotten when was the last time i did that.
and when i need just anyone to be with me, it seems a difficult task. to stay out of home for a while, so that i will feel better. but that didn't happen anyway...
anyway, it was over, for now.
but now, i have a phobia for home. the phobia that reminded me i have done things i shouldn't have done, not once but many times.
i have resolutions.
i will be more independent. i have seen through things. sometimes i just can't rely on anyone.
i must change my priorities, cos i realised i am not on the top few for others.
i will work hard for what i want and i will, from now on, not force the way through.
friendship needs a new definition.
time may heal the burns and cuts on the surface, but it may never heal the pain the heart, the soul and the mind have gone through.
i hope to be a better man.
i hope to be a happy man.
Have you ever wondered...
Have you ever wondered
when you're down
when you thought that the world has given up on you
to look for a better someone.
When you are searching for a source of light
in the total absolute darkness
When you feel that hope is just not possible
and love is just not in the air
Is there someone
just one
whom you can pick up the phone and call
and feel no restrictions at all.
Is there just one
whom you know no matter where he is
or whatever he is doing
he will lend a listening ear.
A new year seems bright and hopeful,
but I do wonder.
