I need a friend
This early morning, among the strangers in the crowded I stand, the song struck me out of a sudden. It was like telling me, 'You need a friend'.
Amongst the piles of stress that isolates me from happiness, and directs me to my agony and lonliness, I just need someone to ask me "How are you doing?"
It's been some time, I last feel the warmth that accompanies that very greeting.
Or was it me who lack the concern that I should give to the people around me long before?
Changes
We deal with changes almost everyday, some are expected while others are not. The temperature changes with the rise and set of the sun. Some are just unexpected such as when illness befalls.
I admit. I never can adapt well and fast enough to changes. It takes me quite some time to feel at ease and comfortable with the big changes that bump into me. When I thought I fit so well in the new environment, the intoduction of another change, which may not be big, causes me to sit at the edge, yet again. I should learn, to adapt as quick, and not deal with a attitude of rejection to the changes. I should be optimistic and be thankful of the opportunity I am given.
But some changes are quite difficult to allow me to sleep in peace. At least those encountered in work are still manageable. The fear of change that comes with losing someone is frightening. I just pray that everything would be just fine.
Been in a rather down mood in these few days. I just need to find a channel to release the vent up mood. Finding a friend or two is a possiblity, but sometimes I just wonder who out there is willing to be that listening ear. Besides, I don't want affect other peoples' moods.
I am sad again, and it's been some time I feel this way.
Don't I have enough reasons to hate myself?
