I just got a sms a couple hours ago from dear Siandy, asking me to enjoy the last of my mid 20 life because tomorrow I will be late 20s!
I was like... Speechless.
Imagine receiving that sms after running 5.6km for JP Morgan Corporate Chase, and feeling all so tired and aching everywhere. And worse still, the timing was not Olympic-ish. Not even a mile near that, making me feel much much older than I already am. The sms wasn't any much encouraging, yah?
Haha!
Oh well, you know what, Siandy? Have you heard that for guys, 30 is the start of the prime? I haven't even reached my prime yet!
Yup, that makes it sound much much better!!
Anyway thanks for the birthday message! Really appreciated it, though in a really interesting way.
And yup, Pris, hope the rest of us can meet up soon again. Sorry for the late reply. I was running for my life. Haha!
On other news, I got this:
Audio Techinca AT2020 USB microphone.
Actually I was looking for a microphone so that I could do some recording and sound engineering. It's actually just for leisure and fun, nothing much serious. But somehow, I got that in the end. Yes, I could have gotten a normal karaoke microphone, but I read on the Internet that I need a pre-amp to make it sound amped (whatever that means). And USB mics have built in pre-amp. I wanted to get a Samson Q1u which costs less than half the price but it was out of stock. The CAD one didn't look fantastic, so I didn't get that.
Please don't ask me how much!!
PS: I didn't fork out the money. But still I was heart-ached.
Sometimes I really do wonder if I am really an uptight person, who leaves no room for any compromising. Do I really always leave you in a situation such that if you can’t meet ‘my’ expectation, I would sulk for the rest of the day?
I admit I am rather particular about certain issues, especially about time commitment. I really do get irritated when I am supposed to wait for more than 15 minutes, especially when I am all by myself. I really feel that this is a waste of time, and this time could be better spent on doing other things, instead of waiting.
Maybe I just have to get used to when people do not meet the agreed time. I just have to be sure I do meet these time schedules as well. The best way for me to not let time wasted unnecessarily is probably equipped myself with my own entertainment, be it a book, magazine or even my PSP.
Time issues aside, I really have to wonder if I do expect a lot from my friends.
I don't wish to blog about work unless something very interesting or is really worthy to blog about. Work is just the like that everyday, like one of my friends says, work is 'same shit, different days', which I have to agree.
On Friday, did some window shopping around at Tampines Mall, and watched Disaster Movie with bro. Talking about bro, I realised we get to know each other better after i consoled him during his breakup with his ex girlfriend. It was really a bad period of him, and I think since then, we 2 bachelors became quite close and look out for possible 'opportunities'. Haha.
Yesterday, I met up with 5 man gang for a crab cum zi char dinner at some coffee shop at Ang Mo Kio. I think this is one of the most expensive dinner that I have paid for myself. You see, I seldom eat good stuff, but yesterday, I think I really spent quite a bit for crabs, some pork ribs, bun, vegetables and chicken. The chilli crab is not bad but the sauce is rather spicy. The butter one is not bad. My friends prefer the bee hoon and soupy ones, but I feel its like fish bee hoon and instead of fish, they added crabs with the soup base being the same as the fish soup with milk in it.
After that, we went walked around at AMK hub and decide to reside at a small cafe which offers very few boardgames. And so we played Taboo, Urban legend, and this balancing game which is like uno stacko or jenga but instead of blocks, we placed funnel like objects on a balancing platform. At around 11pm, we took bus back and headed to our home sweet home.
Went to gym-swim-jacuzzi-suntan today at bro's father's condo. Need to maintain shape and health especially during work. Then went to have botak jones and then we go to TM again to get some stuff.
One of my friends commented that once I am tired, I just let everything loose and not make an effort to do things or just even talk. I will just shut off all my senses and my temper seems to escalate at moments like this. I can't help but to agree. And because of this, I think I affect the moods of my friends, which in turn affect me as well. I really to reserve my energy and not exert it in the beginning and let all loose at the end of the day, so loose that I don't even care what's happening around me. I need to learn, and I hope I will improve.
Just forgive me when I turned quiet or looked bad mood-ed. I am just tired and shut off, really.
Finally got a phone... And it's not Nokia 6500 Slide. It turned out to be a Sony Ericsson K850i. Besides the small buttons and the rather dull design, I loved the functions and such. And it's a 5 megapixel camera phone. But as it's a SE one, I have to get used to the new way of smsing and browsing around the phone.
And I finally changed my plan too, after about 7 years of Classic100, I now upgraded to a i-One plus Student Plan. Which means, I have FREE INCOMING calls, unlimited smses and free campus call... Haha!
That aside, more and more of my friends are getting employed and I am still awaiting replies from the companies that have interviewed me, and those that I have sent my resumes too. I also just realized it's only two weeks left before the end of my university life. As much as I want to graduate, there's a feeling of belonging and attachment to the campus, the life here and the friends made.
Hopefully I will enjoy the rest of my term here, although there are still the dreadful exams, projects and assignment deadlines!!
As we grow up and the environment we are in changes, be it the change of school environment, activities, the neighbourhood or some other reasons, we will gradually be in lesser contact with friends we normally hang out with. This is inevitable, as people have to move on and when new friends are made, we tend to forget our old ones, maybe not totally, unless we make an effort to keep those we are really close with.
We tend to make excuses that we are really busy with either work, school, girlfriends, boyfriends, that we can't find time to spend with friends. I am a victim of such excuses. I admit there are times, when I do lack time management ability and have to forgo meeting up with peeps I haven't met for ages. And before you know it, you are never in contact with them anymore.
Well it's rather sad, but it's the truth. We do lose friends we thought we'd never lose as we proceed through the journey of life.
I recently bumped into a couple of my secondary school friends on the bus. We were rather close together during secondary school days, but since JC, it seems we have less contact with each other. And when we met up again, the atmosphere seemed rather cold and lack of topics to chat about.
Nevertheless, I am glad I am still in contact with some of my old and close friends from primary school and JC. We plan outings, eating sessions, birthday celebrations, KTV sessions, Zoo outings, overseas trips and what-nots.
It is really cliche but it takes two hands to clap. For a relationship or friendship to last, it really requires all parties to be involved as much as possible. It can be tiring, especially when work ties us down, but take gatherings or meeting ups as times to relax and destress.
It's the process of growing up and it's inevitable that we will lose some good friends around. That's why I really try to meet up with friends I am still in contact with, especially those that clique very well. Who knows probably in the future, we will still be going out together, maybe not that often, but frequent enough to not lose them. And who knows some friendships will just be happy memories and will just relinquish.
But I don't know why. It's not that I have so many things to do, or been out from dusk to dawn everyday, or been to hectic excursions to Mount Everest. I have only been out during the evenings for dinners and gatherings.
Maybe I slack too much, and think too much. The unnecessary worries just burden me. Or are they really unnecessary?
Been thinking a little too much these few days, thinking how I should deal in the situations I am in. I really don't know what to do at times, and I feel that I am just wasting my time and youth away, involve in things that have no destinations or no endings. I know I should move on, to look for new aims, to look for new beginnings, to look for sunnier days. It's not just that very one thing that is tying me down, but just the things around me that seem to make me so weary.
School's starting, and it's the already the final semester. Maybe it's good that school's starting so that the fatigue of life won't tire me as much.
I just watched a French Comedy, Le Diner de Cons (The Dinner Game). The movie talks about how Pierre and his apparently 'smart' friends have a dinner every week, where they must invite someone whom they think is an idiot. The guest whom they deemed is the craziest will win this game. However, something cropped up and Pierre is stuck at home with his guest. The tables are then turned against him and his life becomes a real mess.
I think this comedy is really different from the typical comedy where you laugh off your chair. The humor is subtle such that you don't even realise you are actually laughing away. The setting is really simple, no great visual effects, no exaggerated acting. Just the simple conversation make you realize the stupidity of human beings and how even yourself might get into such situation, that is making real stupid mistakes.
The moral I got from the story is that no matter who you are or no matter how intelligent you are, never try to act that you are smart or smarter than anyone else. If you are really smart and trying to act smarter, the consequences will somehow hit back to yourself. And if you are already not so intelligent and try to act smart, you will just be a joke yourself.
I really think it's a nice and simple movie which tells a lot. Just be yourself, and I remember one line from the movie when the supposed idiot trying to help Pierre, 'It's tiring to be intelligent'.
Singing is a pleasure, and it's a way of expression and communication, like talking. Being in a singing group myself, there are so many times, we are so concerned about how we should sound, our pitch, our diction, our placement. But have we forgotten that we sing because we want to communicate with our audience, and we want to tell them the story behind the song? It doesn't have to be the interpretation of what the original singer has done, but as long as you feel the song, I think it's ok if you sing it in your own interpretation.
As some of my friends know, I do follow a Taiwanese Singing Contest called 超級星光大道 or One Million Star. It's already in its second season, and the last few contestants. I admire a few contestants like 林宜融 , 梁文音 , and 吳忠明 . I admire them either because of their powerful voices, their hard work, or their ability to portray the songs as they are supposed to be. Some of them are also able to take the song to a different level and have a new interpretation of the song.
While I was watching this week's episode, where the contestants are supposed to team up with veteran singers. I feel that no matter how good the contestants are, they still miss out a certain feeling or factor the veterans can portray. I was particularly touched by this veteran, 蕭煌奇 , who perform alone after teaming up with 賴銘偉. Somehow, it was very touching. Maybe because of his disability (he's blind), that made the song, 你是我的眼 , particularly more meaningful. What hit me deeper is when asked by 陶子 how he was able to sing so well, he said singing should be an enjoyment, a pleasure. He also said that one should just live everyday happily and go ahead and achieve what you dream for.
It's the last day of 2007 and before the year comes to its final second, people would normally have some reflections and make new resolutions. I looked at my post at the beginning of the year and saw what resolutions I have made for 2007. I can safely say I have tried to fulfill some of the resolutions to a certain extent, that is to spend more time with people around me, and to spend less time doing unnecessary things, though I still waste quite a bit of time here and there.
This year has been rather packed for me in some ways. There's internship, first tuition assignment, new friends made, things that happened that made me realize the importance of family, gatherings with friends, etc. I think and hope I have grown in one way or the other through the things that have happened this year.
My posts recently have been of a long length, thus I would try to keep this short. As a whole, I would say 2007 has been a year of growing and learning. I have also learned if I really want something, I can achieve that aim to a certain extent. Some didn't turn as well as I expected to be, but still it can be achieved. Probably I should just want things harder, then probably I can achieve it.
2008 will be great and greater.
Went out with the horn gang again yesterday. The usual KTV session, where Gary brought his girlfriend along. Post KTV was dinner at my favorite Lan Zhou La Mian at Chinatown, where we ended the gathering after some phototaking at Central at Clarke Quay.
